I have no words.
I am spent.
The absence of my voice leaves room for the bile rising up
within the empty cavern where my heart once beat.
Loudly it thrummed out its music and yet now
all that you might hear crushed against the wall of my being:
A quiet flutter, enough to sustain while deprived of verve.
Eyes glazed looking out at the hustle and bustle around me.
Once, I belonged to that world of noise and emotion.
A clouded glass now muffles the sounds and impairs my
vision of an existence I have all but forgotten.
Do not let me forget.
Shatter the glass.
Monday, February 6, 2012
UPDATE 11/17/2013: Yes, I finished this project. Yes, I have pictures of the results...somewhere. I fell off the wagon right after getting on it and I have newfound respect for those who blog and raise a family! I am hoping to update this post with the completion but if not, please don't hold it against me as sometimes it is just best to start with a clean slate!
Since I last wrote life has been a whirlwind. The boys have kept me busy though I have managed to complete a few DIY projects over the past few months. From holiday projects to my latest endeavor in refinishing an oak bookcase we recently acquired. We are bursting at the seams in our little home and have learned to imagine storage space into existence. We will be adding the new bookcase to the hall off the kitchen to hopefully house most of my jewelry supplies and craft paraphernalia. In between coats of paint (must be productive while drying!) I will be transforming our kitchen bar area into a much-needed work space for moi. I hope that will give me the motivation I need to boost my waning productivity. I will be posting before and afters of aforementioned bookcase as well as my new work space so be watching for them!